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| I have fallen on confusing times. Indecision on all fronts.
Insanity in all directions. Idiots surrounding me. Ignore
Incomplete Idioms. Ideas?
The best way to deal with the events that are set to transpire next
year is to not think of them. It's beginning to look like that
next year is going to be some sort of postponement, that anybody's
guess is as good as mine. And before you ask, no, I may not be
going to law school. I haven't ruled it out as an option yet, by
far, it's just not 100%
Then again, what is 100%? As a natural born skeptic, I don't
believe in absolutes. I'm not absolutley sure about anything
anymore. The older you get the more you realize that there is no
possible way to understand everything in the world. That fact
alone depresses me. There is so much that I want to know, but I
know also know that there is limits on my human brian.
Random brain droppings today. More to come possibly, since I'm going to have to write until I can't see straight....
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| LSAT - done and over with(at least for now). Midterms - done and
over with. However, schoolwork still remains. I suppose
I've reached the point in my life where I will no longer ever be not
working on something. Growing up sucks.
Note: This post will be quite contraversal. If you are offened by
it, send me a message and I'll be sure to not respond to it. I'm
not trying to piss off any of the six people who read this regularly,
I'm just trying to say what is on my mind.
I'm finding it increasing difficult to identify myself with some sort
of religion. It's not that any of my core beliefs are in
question(truth be told, they always are in question, because i am a
natural born skeptic) it is that I get so sick of many of the people
who claim to be religious. Protestant Religions especially seem
to put a high degree of guilt upon thier followers for the sins that
they have comitted. But my experince has taught me that even
though individual people can be good, humans are naturally pieces of
deep-fried shit. So, humans general natured evilness combined
with the guilt imposed on them makes them be underhanded and sneaky,
which I think is far worse than being open. For example, It's
better that somebody admits to doing something than someone who is
hypocritical.
My examples come from my experinces with religoius devouts at ole
miss. Those who tend to judge people by thier behavior.
They may not drink, smoke, engage in immoral activities with the
opposite sex(or same sex, whatever the case may be), listen to vulgar
music or watch profane movies. There is nothing wrong with that,
however rubbing this is someone's face who may in fact partake of these
things violates key teachings in the Bible. I'm sure that it says
that you should not judge your neighbors, that God is the only
judge. However, most would rather put themselves on a pedastool
and condemn you instead of looking in their own heart. Don't they
realize that they are doing more harm than good; I think more people
these days don't go to church because they are worried about being
judged by someone who is just as much a sinner as they are.
I guess I just have little faith in God's choice to let human beings
run his religion. I know that I can't possibly understand what he
is thinking, and maybe I should take my own advice and just worry about
my own ass and let God take care of those people. After all, I am
a sinner as well, and I shouldn't judge the people who are
judgemental. I guess that's the props of being a human, always
sticking your foot in your mouth. I will say I have always liked
the Catholic approach to committing a sin, you confess it, get it out
of the way, and then everything is alright. It seems as if they
have come to grip with the fact that people are going to sin no matter
how much you preach at them, so they might as well confess and go on
with their lives.
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| Someone told me today, "boy you look stressed." This statement
was offically nominated for the understatement of the year award.
The past three days I have done nothing but LSAT prep work, and today
and the following three days will be filled with more of the
same. I feel like this is going to be a bitch of a test, but I
also feel that I should do as much to prepare for it as I can.
Hopefully I will be able to do well on it, but who knows at this
point. I will have to just give it my best, and then I'll see
where it goes from there.
After this, of course, it's time to throw down like I've never done it
before. Who says I'm getting too old for this........
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| Election day at Ole Miss, the longer I stay here the further from understanding the people at this school I get........
Anyways, it's all LSAT prep work for the next two weeks, followed by
the test itself. I am bored out of my mind with this, although
tonight I realized that it was starting to make sense to me, and I
think with a little more work I should be able to ace this thing.
This whole victory lap thing sure is wierd. I feel myself getting
further away from my old self, whatever that was. Jesus, has it
really been that long, or have I just metamorphized. No, I'm
still that same eccentric wierd kid that came here four years ago, I've
just learned to disguise myself in order to blend in (mostly to pick up
chicks, although that fails way more times than it works).
Maybe I'm in need of a good crazy binge, it certainly has been a
while. Perhaps I need to push things to the limit, get as close
to the line as I can without crossing it. Nobody remembers races
and elections where there was one clear winner. The real thing
they remember is the close ones, the lost by a few votes, a few
seconds, an extra point, a stolen base. That's what I've got to
do, I've got to get so close but still manage to finish on top.
Let's just hope that I can finish at all. I'm sorry if this
doesn't make sense, but I didn't hold a gun to your head and make you
read this, although if you would like me to I'd be much obliged.......
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| note to self: stop being such a wuss.
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